5.5.07

Dear Dairy

Dear Dairy,
I really don't know how to describe the emotion i felt at the moment. I feel elated but at the same time the doubt still lingers. You know what they say about having a crush. Remember i said about A being married? Apperantly no, he is not. But the fact that he having a girlfriend might be still be true thought he admitted himself that he's not.
Funny how destiny is. I had a major crush on him. But it's peridiotically ditto. Because of what i heard about him. I've always imagine having to meet him virtually somewhere. And somehow rather, god granted it! Really.I receive a private message frm somebody from this "dating"website. ( no im not revealing where)It turns out to be him. Or so i guess. He did not reveal himself to me. But the clues he leaves are just so right that it's him. I'm not good in explaining but you know how it feels like when you are guessing that it's him, and when you finally guess that him, you feel good yet dissapointed? Dissapointed because that the mystery that keeps you jibbery ends. Well that's how i felt.
I don't know if we have the chemistry or not. I can't hope and i don't want to hope. For all you know, he's just being friendly. But if it's the case, why is he being mystery about himself. Gosh i hate this mind game. Really, it just brings headache to me, not to mention mild heartache.
Oh well.

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