Selamat pengantin baru Nisha!

Nana and me. See Syam so dengki put is finger so it looks like as if he's digging my nose! Love latter picture! So model kan! NOT

I hearts them both. Never fail to entertain me. And nana ask Syam to stop playing and teasing about my NOSE! And i envy to the fact that they have already reach their 3rd year mark. you guys will get hitched soon after heh? Me? Wait nong nong lah.

My exschool mate was legally married yesterday. I met up wit the crazy wacky couple, nana and sham. Thanks to the father, who drove me up to yew tee. And guess what, he thought that the wedding was at yew tee and reason he drove me up was simply because he thought he could get the taste of nasi minyak. -_- " -_-". See. How thoughtful.

Well anyway, Sham kept teasing me about me sleeping with my mouth open. What the blair. ok internal joke. I can't even remember about it. It was like eons ago. And he teased me about my sunglass. Yes the big one. "Ape takde lagi besar kepe" Why you!

We went off first from b.batok without radiah and her boyfriend. Yes, yesterday i was the lamp post. But it was ok lah, i never felt left out at all. Nana and Syam entertained me too much. Just too much!

But of course the highlight of yesterday was Nisha's wedding. The moment i saw her on bridal dais, i was lost for word. Truly, my hand was shaking when nana and i went up the daid to shake hand with her. I did'nt know if it was ok to kiss her cheeks (our tradition, when we meet up with friends). So i did'nt though i wanted too. The funny scene was, the three of reached there, we din't know what to do first and next. *serve us right for not attending weddings with our parents before* Sitting down on the table, i just kept admiring the new bride. I nearly teared ok thinking the fact that my friend now belongs to the husband.

Radiah and boyfriend came later. Ah, that moment was awkward because that was when i felt abit like a lamp- post. That was when nana nudge me at this chinese guy who was sitting with us. She joked that Nisha knew i would come without a partner thus she hook me up with the chinese guy. ptffffffff. Turns out the guy to be Nisha's sec sch teacher. It was hilarious because i role play to talk to him, usher him to eat and only to find out that he's married. Double ptffffffff.

Selamat pengantin baru nisha. Malam pertama jgn malu2 share ngan aku hokay. Ho Ho ho. I wish you all the best, i tumpang gembira that you are finally married to the ONE.

The wacky couple and i decided to hang out at coffee bean before we headed home. Took dozens of pictures, laughing out loud to the jokes we made. Just fun to end the day. Sweet. We brought mudpie, caremal and mocha.

Even sweeter, nana suggested to go out again next Sunday to Sentosa. Aku so cannot wait ok. Just fun going out with the both of them.

Good company + good food + good place + good live band

Look we have the same nose!

Uber cute lead singer. *blush*

Half eaten pizza. Ompphhhhh

Roy, thank you for the wonderful conversation we had. I now have enough knowledge what busking is all about. And oh how i love listening your stories touring europe just to busk. He felt bad i can't have my cuppucino because the damn machine broke down. He's so funny. He got worried because i told him i want to talk over coffee. And he took my word too seriously. He insisted we go to tcc just so i can have my coffee. *chuckles* Just in case if you guys are wondering, he busk at waterloo st. DO check him out. I forgot to ask him for his picture in his busking. Its amazing we can share so much within 4 hrs. Oh oh have i told you how cute the lead singer is with his dimple. Too bad i don't have a close up picture of him. I was oggling at him all the time. Date me! haha.

Location : Timber, Former art house

Unexpected suprise

Sometimes the unexpected turns out better than you though it is. I love the suprise and how i love the quick bondage i have among my coursemates.

Inside the mrt, Zaba spotted this cute girl with her hot looking father (i presume). Sotong only take her picture!

One of my coursemate invited me to her aunty's indian restaurant. Its located at changi village where you book the hdb chalet. I profusely thanked her for the treat! She's so nice and generous! And to think i just knew her. After that we were yakking and joking like old friends. She shared with me, she never really had friends around mainly because the malay friends she had were rasict! Impeccable i tell you! No darling need not worry hokay. Me,Zaba and friends are not like those friends of yours!

Nice and cheap. I had roti prata. Zaba had roti john. Sedap!!

Hearts her. Me and Kana

We had no plans, so we stroll down the beach.

pardon the hand. i tulen hokay.

I never expected it would turn out fun. Really, i wish i could go to detail, but i got demesia lah! Can't remember much!

Beautiful moments

"this is how you pucker up your lips kakak"

p/s: pss tagboard is up again. Tag while stock last!

I am so tempted to post up cbox again to my blog


Should i?

Should i not?

Oh man!

Anyway, my uncle after the winning, became an overnight celebrity! He was interviewed at B.harian, and latest i heard from my brother, some health magazines offer him to be on their cover page. Oh my god, i so envy my uncle. Funny, when he have and had no intention of being one, god gave him . Me, i so badly want to be miss celebrity (no pun intended!!), yet is still a nobody. Haha oh well.

I knew i wanted to blog something but its out of mind now! Shesshh, what it is i want to blog heh..

Oh yah,i am enjoying every little bits of my life at the moment. Alhamdullilah.

I am going out with friends and i am making more new friends. All is not lost, don't you think. Losing you is'nt a bad idea after all. Please don't spoil it by coming back to my life! Lets put an end. Ditto.

Meeting Roy for coffee this Friday. . He has the coolest job. He's a busker and if you see an immobile man all in silver or gold posing like statue, that's him.

Saturday is my ITE's fren wedding. oh man, another down. Suddenly i feel old and seems that life revolve too fast. Just too fast for me to actually register in my brain.

Bobby just told me over msn he's leaving Ritz. He wount tell me the reason. Damn, so secretive sia. So my friend,all i can offer, JAGA DIRI BAIK- BAIK hor!

Oklah, take care lovelies.

me and mona flauting the invitation card


me and zabah. Thank you ok babe. *Hearts*


The 3 of us inside the enclosed fashion house. It was thrilling i tell you!


models. ahh, just the correct motivation to go on diet hah!

Location :Coffee Pacific


from left: niza,zabah,me and zuraidah. all preety2 kan ;D


Ahh now niza's face is not 'cut'.heh. picture taken by yours truly



ok lah this are the only pictures which az willingly helped me to i-dunno-what-he-did-lah! Thank you, but DON'T anyhow misuse the pictures i sent to you hor. Hehe. Kidding. Thanks dude!

Maybe Losing you is a GREAT idea afterall

Something is wrng with my blog post or did i press something wrong? all pictures come out in html codes and tags. shesshh. sorry mr azaris. i have to dissapoint you. I can't blog anything with no pictures!

Well anyway, ill just tell you all lah k. So use your lucrative imagination to visualise what happen during the weekend.

Last Friday was my last day at MINDS. I of course was very sad to leave. I've bonded so much with the trainees. I wanted to burst into tears but that would be abit exxegerating don't you think. ITs just 3 months anyway. So anyway, my collougue was very nicey nicey.Alvin brought for my green tea soya bean and pancakes for breakfast. Not that i like green tea soya bean,but the fact that he took note that i loved green, he went ard finding something green, and he went the extra effort to ask if it's HALAL. gee, i wasa touched. Yes, i was hokay.


Then after work, they brought me Gayathri Rest to have a farewell dinner. See, how could you not be touched.And to the fact that i was just volunterring there for just two month! Arghh, sad that i cant post the pictures. I had lots of laughter, and boy im sure going to miss them. Sad that Reeve could'nt come. He's my part time bf over there. Haha. And to top it up, Lele, Mona and Tryphena actually send me to the bustop and send me off.Mind you, their busstop was way before me! Awww Awww and AWW~~!

Remember i said someone invited me for a fashion show. I never regret accepting it!! It was so exciting, i tell you, you would beg just to trade places with me. HEH! I made a new friend too. And i saw denise keller. Oh, her high bridge nose. Now i would truly beg to trade place with her. I don't mind! haha. Zabah, i must really thank you hokay, for the invitation. I am so tempted to go for more.


Ahhh..double sad. I really really wish to show you the pictures. Real bad. Lets see lah hor. If the next time i log in, it turned back ok, I PROMISE, those picture i'm proudly to show will be publish hokay!

Lastly, im making new new friends at school. We hang out at vivo city at pacific coffee yesterday. Superb location, enchanting view (chey,chey) and chatty course mates!

Your Hidden Talent

Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people.You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together.Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly.People crave your praise and complements.

What's" Your Hidden Talent?

I am famous now!

Ok so its not me, its my uncle whose the famous man right now. Da okb (read: orang kaya baru). Its ok, your preety niece here, tumpang famous also lah ok!

Friends come and go.

But will you leave a footprint in my Heart?

Miss Miss Miss


Love Love Love

Hey you,

yes you. good morning. Its 1.17 now in the morning and this is my 2nd post for the day. I was actually sleeping just now when i suddenly woke up followed by series of scratching. Don't ask me why. AND no, my bed does'nt have any bed fleas. I was cursing and swearing cause when i looked at the time it was just past midnite!! I cannot get back to sleep once i am awake, so i am thankful that i have internet connection and SCV to keep me going. I was blog-hopping as per usual when i came across this lady's blog. I somehow recognise her thru this website anakmelayu. You know back then, one time, suddenly they have clans and alliances coming up and i dutifully kononnye want to be a part of it. Someone from the net i got aquaintted with intived me to join her clan which was GIMY ( which later only remained bout 4 people only, I THINK).So thats how i recognise her lah. But that's not my drift you know. What i'm going to share is my sentiments towards what she's going thru somebody. Sorry love, if i never got the whole story correct. But assuming from what you wrote on your blog, you must be very heart broken.

Now Eqa, it is sad enough for me to read your blog about you ranting that you love him, and he on the other hand does'nt love you back. How could he have done that? Dahling, don't blame yourself for whatever had happen. Never. Look at you! You are a beautiful babe. Think of it this way, its HIS lost!not YOUR lost hokay. Right now it seems to me that he have the control over you. Because he knew that you are still not over him, he is somehow taking advantage of the situation. Generally guys feel good about themself when someone actually would do anything for them.

Which then, gave me the vast impression of how heartless a guy can me. Eqa is not just one example i'm relating too. Look at my gf, Enah, she went thru a series of heartbreak before meeting her love. Nani, even is going thru a turmoil because of love. DO you guys have feelings in the first place?? Can't you spare us girls the complexity of love? You know, there were occasion of time when Enah would coyly say, "Eh if like tis hor, alamat jadi anak dara tua lah" She might say it for fun sake, but deep down, there are the fears that she went thru before. I, too, have been thru such situation. God, i shall not eloborate what happen.

Disclaimer: It may create some unwanted dispute, but i meant no harm. This is purely my own personal view, so save your dissing!

I found this skin by chance i have the urge to change my blogskin. Lovely is'nt it. White and just cheery. Unlike my last skin (as if i had many!heh), it seems so black and gloomy. Well, i am still adjusting to the new skin that i just had to keep on looking at it for a zillionth time. Talk about paranoia! or was it kiasu? haha

Anyway,i came back home from work feeling so motivated. Motivated to exercise. Oh man, one of semangat 2 minute is up again. If Enah and Masline read this, they must have the same thought i guess.Haha. Because whenever i meet up with the both of them, i go, "eh i want to exercise lah!" "eh i should start to exercise". There was even a time when i bought this bellydancing cd for me to start off, but hey, aku ke mana, cd tu ke mana!
But i many many reason for me to start dieting and exercising. When i met the girls last Sunday, I felt fat! Yes i did! In fact the truth was I am fat. Imagine the akwardness i felt (though i cleverly never show)!! If you look at the pictures i posted, don't you think that the smiles look fake? Not that i din't want to smile, but fact was,the whole time i was talking and asking myself, do i look good among them? my my look at what i have done to myself. But then again, i take this reason, to futher motivate me to look good for myself. After all i am single. Single people have to look good right?.... NOT! Confidence Nadya! Confidence! Where have your confidence gone? OH nOooooooo..

No offence girls, i am not jealous, but just full of envy. Envy that you guys have the confidence to strut it off. I lost my confidence oredi. Dunno where it has gone. Now, now, it's time to find it back is'nt it.

So nadya.

Semoga maju jaya eh!

Heh heh heh

I guess i woke up from the wrong side of the bed today. I woke up feeling bitter. Suddenly it gets to me. Today is the second day i had the same dream, only the dream today describes how i felt deep down. I have never as a person able to communicate with other of how i truly feel of certain thing or personal stuff. I tried before but it never get across to them of how i wanted it to be. And i felt rejected. Rejected because when i tried to pour out my feelings, personal ones, they don't seem to take seriously about it. Or at least i think that way. So my dream, i guess is where i really pour out my deepest inner thoughts. I dreamt of him. I dreamt, i was in the bus, double decker to be precise. I sat at the top. And then i saw him. Yes him with his new girlfriend. In the dream, i immediately had a rushed emotion. Butterflies in my stomach. I always expected that i would be well prepared to face such situatio, but not. I wanted to cry. I only manage to wintch in dismay. Now in reality, i thought i have gotten over him. Reason being, i never cried when he left me, not like when my other ex boyfriend left me. I never thought of him often though here and there i would check my hp for missed call. Maybe i was to caught up with work that i never had the chance to feel so. But the dream... i felt so much. I wanted so much to move on. I kept telling myself, i don't need to find another man to delude myself from this situation. There are so many other ways,yet i always imagine myself with someone else, and there he saw me with him. I imagine that he would be red-eyed seeing me with another person. I imagine him have full regret of not taking care better of me when we were together. Imagine, imagine, imagine. That was all i could muster. I right now,am taking a very deep breath. Time will heal they say. But thing is, how long? I muster lots of courage to keep this to myself.

Ughhhh.

Well, on a lighter note, my cousin from JB gotten himself a ob at Macs. I, as his cousin is anxiously happy of him. Yesterday, i excitedly went dwn tot macs to lend him e support. First day mahh!

And on the happy happy note, a friend whom i just got aquinted with invited me to go to the Marks and Spencer Fashion Show this Saturday!! How cool is that!!! I am so looking forward to it.

I am so freakkkkkking pissed!! I woke up early in the morning, happily blogging about yesterday FUN outing i had, when one click of i-don't -know-what-i-press, and poof all the long entries that i crack up to write just hilang! OH MY GOD, i was writing about my current favourite word, OH MY GOD, my new old friend found Dayah! The sheer laughter we had, the GOOD food I had, about how we manage to the place down with our shrieking high pitch monstorous laughter.,*points to nani and dayah* ,about how i jokingly tell nani to pass her precious digicam which is full of me and enah's picture and she blurly said yes, pokingly teasing Enah about her secretively not telling she is finally attached to her LOVE after being 3 years single. maybe that explains why she gave a huge treat to all of us! hah! all that stories that will keep you going on reading with pleasure! oh my god!! and maybe that's the reason why it unmotivate me to blog!

Urgh! I am not going to layment anymore. Heart pain thinking about it. I'll show you the pictures instead!

Sorry yuni and farah, i don't have any pictures of yu. But i had uber fun with both of yu, and Yuni, laugh more!

new old friend found, DAYAH! Credits to Enah who bring us together!

If my blog is alive and kicking, it or shall i give a gender 'her', she would dump me as a friend. Poor her, i've abandon my unlucky blog for such a long time. So many too update yet i never had the urge to blog in on. Pictures are readily available,yet im very very lazy to upload.Anyway, my life sucks at the moment. No, i can't blog any longer, my uncle hospitalized and im here to give him a visit and maybe lecture him a bit on what landed him in the hospital again.HAH,cigarette. Heheh. Ok till again.

Btw NENNY! I heart you. I miss yu! IF you are reading this, give flying kisses to your chuby cheeks, we will mit up soon, i promise!

A dear friend of mine ida gave me this wonderful email that i felt i should share with all.

MOTHER

This is a truly BEAUTIFUL piece please For those lucky to still be blessed with your Mom,this is beautiful. For those of us who aren't, this is even more beautiful. For those who are moms, you'll love this. The young mother set her foot on the path of life. "Isthis the long way?" she asked. And the guide said: "Yes, and the way is hard. And you will be old before you reach the end of it. But the end will be better than the beginning." But the young mother was happy, and she would notbelieve that anything could be better than these years. So she played with her children, and gathered flowers forthem along the way, and bathed them in the clear streams; andthe sun shone on them, and the young Mother cried,"Nothing will ever be lovelier than this."
Then the night came, and the storm, and the path was dark, and the children shook with fear and cold, and the mother drew them close and covered them with her mantle, and the children said, "Mother, we are not afraid, for you are near, and no harm can come."
And the morning came, and there was a hill ahead, and the children climbed and grew weary, and the mother was weary. But at all times she said to the children," A little patience and we are there." So the children climbed, and when they reached the top they said, "Mother, we would not have done it without you."
And the mother, when she lay down at night looked up at the stars and said, "This is a better day than the last, for my children have learned fortitude in the face of hardness. Yesterday I gave them courage. Today, I 've given them strength." And the next day came strange clouds which darkenedthe earth, clouds of war and hate and evil, and the children gropedand stumbled, and the mother said: "Look up. Lift your eyes to the light. " And the children looked and saw above the cloudsan everlasting glory, and it guided them beyond thedarkness. And that night the Mother said, "This is the best day of all, for I have shown my children God."
And the days went on, and the weeks and the months and the years, and the mother grew old and she was little and bent. But her children were tall and strong, and walked withcourage. And when the way was rough, they lifted her,for she was as light as a feather; and at last they came to a hill, and beyond they could see a shining road and golden gates flung wide. And mother said, "I have reached the end of my journey. And now I know the end is better than the beginning, for my children canwalk alone, and their children after them."
And the children said, "You will always walk with us, Mother, even when you have gone through the gates."And they stood and watched her as she went on alone, and the gatesclosed after her. And they said: "We cannot see herbut she is with us still. A Mother like ours is more than a memory. She is a living presence......." Your Mother is always with you.... She's the whisperof the leaves as you walk down the street; she's the smell of bleach in your freshly laundered socks; she's the cool handon your brow when you're not well. Your Mother lives inside your laughter. And she's crystallized in every tear drop.She's the place you came from, your first home; and she's the map you follow with every step you take. She's your first loveand your first heartbreak, and nothing on earth can separate you.

Mama,your daughter loves you so much that it hurts knowing the bitter truth. Weeping silently wishing that i am strong enough for you. Why oh why,a great mother like you have to face such turbulance. Yet you face it with great positivity that even i, could not have done it if even i am in your shoe. Regret was never a vocab in my dictionary, but I truly regret for not making you a happy mother.

We cannot cheat on death can we?

Cause if we could, i would like to cheat death on behalf of my mum.

I initially have no intention of blogging at all today as i am too tired,but after watching usik usik chef wan, i would like to share two cents worth of my personal thought. Chef wan touched about single parenting today. I automatically thought of my family. Questions running thru my mind. Lots of what ifs and how ifs. What if one of my parents died?How would i go on living? and ect. I could'nt bring myself to think of it. My mum has cancer, and to be honest with you, i'm scared. Yes,yours truly is afraid. Afraid to hear and face the brutal truth. I imagine my self pain stalkingly taking over my mother's position of being a mother to my siblings, which i can never ever take over her place. My mind is numb now. I would'nt want to lose my mum now. Now now..... I'm sorry, i can't bring myself to blog more. My fingers are shivering while typing.

Thank you to my sweetie fren, enah who accompanied me from morning till nite!

I'm too tired too update at the moment. Too tired hokay. Tis madame needs her beauty sleep!

Well they say pictures paint a thousand words. So pictures yu will see for now ok. Nite!

Today i'm trying something not-so new. Wish me good luck!!

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I am finally like at home. And it was one rushing day i tell you! After i submit my first post, i received a call my dearie dearie nenek. Nenek called asking me to accompany her to Sheng Siong since today is her last day here. She will balek kampong tomorrow. As yu guys can see from the first post, I had plans already. I was barely left with few hours to siap-ing and meet up my mum as planned. Time check : 9 am. But me being me, after much time calculation (which i failed badly), i decided to accompany her. So off i went to fetch her at my aunt's house.

Reaching there,she wanted to go to the money changer. I suggested her to go near Sheng Siong. Ehhh, dier taknak. Want to know what she said "taknak lah kak, kite gi kat atas siket. Lebih 20posen." FREAKING 20cents more i tell you. SANGGOPPPPPPPP!! geram aje, naseb aku sayang nenek aku nieh.

Then we headed to Sheng Siong.

looking for her "cocoout" (read : Quacker Oat)

Eiyerrrr aunty ur butt....

Then i rush to meet up my dearest dearest mummy (mama i heart yu very much) who have been waiting for my for past 1 hour. See i tell you, i'm really bad with time. And hokay, let me spill out the beans. I audition myself for Kids Central host. Yes. Tak bedek. And let me tell yu the the crowd very UNEXPECTED. omg omg omg. There were alot of host wannabe. And guess what, after long of queing, due to the overwhelming response, my audition have to be poseponed to tomorrow. I take it a blessing in disguise. Looking at the script given, nampaknye tak tidolah aku malam nie. So Enah, my dear fren, pls make yurself free hokay before we head down for a movie ok ok. Heee....

Look i shall not eleborate more for now. bye

I get excited whenever i want to blog. But the moment my fingers hit the keyboard,my mind start to go blank and i keep on thinking of what to blog about. It come across to me how bloggers blog as long as it is. I mean, reading their blog, they don't seem to have any problem blogging. Unlike me. Sheesh. I get inspired reading their blog, and thus i too want to blog.

Well anyway....

I went for my volunteering at MINDS today. It was UBER uber fun!! Working with mentally disabled people is sure mind and physical challenging but at the end of the day, it's all worth it. They can be a pain, i tell you. But sometimes looking at their funny antics, reminds and motivates me the reason why i want to work with them. They brought smiles on my face.

Something random. One of my friends asked me why i decided to put butter-terbang as my url. Firstly, i love butterflies. I have no reason as why i label as terbang instead of flies. Unique maybe? bahh. But anyway, how it came about is simply because i had a tattoo of a not-yet-done butterfly. UGLY one. And i am not proud of it. In fact, I don't go around showing, its unflattering i tell you. AND yes, i sometimes even don't feel like i own a tattoo at all. Speaking of which, i decided to laser it off. I don't regret having a tattoo. It was a reminder of my rebellion past. Howells.

EH I JUST REMEMBERED!..OK nevermind i'll keep it to myself first.

P/s : I'm looking forward for this Sunday. She said that we will meet up this coming for a movie treat. Im waiting hokayyy..

PEek-tures

my lovely mum

mentel eh ko enah.*kesian die nak kiss aku tak layan*

Some random peek-tures for viewing pleasure.

What's up with Britney?

Have you guys heard of the latest buzz? Britney shaved her head. Not that it is suprising.Shaving is nothing as to compare "flaunting" herself by going commando. But what struck me was, why and what made her shave her head. Then again, i wount have blamed here making such stunt. Look at her life. Its corrupted. Paparazzi made it worse. Give her a life. SHE NEEDS HER OWN PRIVACY. Save the publicity stunt. She doesnt need that. I believe she shaved her head because she felt overwhelmed by her surrounding. She quoted " I want people to stop touching me". Read: Get off my LIFE! My mum always tells me if my life is suay, cut my hair. So my guess is that maybe she wants to start anew ? Afterall she just divorce K-fed. I totally dig it.

Thank yu!

HArHARHar.. I'm like so xcited. Thanks to my cousin, Ikah, she helped me with my blog. I'm like omg omg omg.Thank yu Ikah! Simple layout it mayb, but mayb once i get the hang of it, ill change. For now tadaaaa...omg omg!!!!!

TODAY is my birthday. Funny i felt like it was another day.I never received any cakes but i am contented.I personally think that i don't have to make a bashfull out of my birthday.I think the most important part is to finally make a point to find my own identity.im truly thankful to friends and family who wished. Thank yu. The most suprising was from BOBBY. yes yu heard me right. CHEF BOB. Thank you. YU were the last person i expected to get a call from. THANK YOU!