Breath nadya breath.


I'm having the time of my life.

It's a good thing.

Note to self

I think i'm going into another phase of life. And funny as it seems, that now i'm starting to be more recipient to learn and hungrily and desperately want to own.

Not to long ago, i hate the idea of living abroad. There's no other place where i would like other than Singapore to call my home.

Not to long ago, i don't even flinch at the sight of diamonds morever to hear.

Not to long ago, i hate being overseas more then a fortnight. More, and ill cry to sleep,wanting to back home.

Not long ago, i hate socialising foreign aquantance, for i fear then look down upon me.

Now take that. I'm eating back all my words. HAH!

I'm beginning to take in consideration of living on my own, abroad away from my family, proudly living independantly.

Diamonds now becomes an envy, somthing ill kill to have for.

Travelling, learning other cultures, getting myself aquanted with people from the other side of the world.

I don't have any specific answer to what causes the change, but i secretly believe it's the influence of the people around me.

Or so i've heard.

So now what? You are unhappy with me? Claiming that im boastful and like to show off?

I just chuckle at your statement.

I tried recalling, at which i have boasted about knowing it all.

If i know it all, i wount' have ask for opinions.

If i-know-it-all, i don't give a freaking two cents of your say.

It's such a pity, that you mistaken me sharing my knowledge with you,what ive learnt in school,as showing off.

Really, i just shook my head in dismay. Ive been misunderstood.


I have my flaws. But don't forget, you have your flaws too. .Honestly, it's pretty irritating to have to remind you over and over again. Its just so human to ask.But then, constantly reminding myself,I did my level best, keeping my cool especially when you made yourself clear over msn, that you want me to stop asking you this and that? I thank you for that feedback and i work on it. Then again,how long can my patience run, if you keep on tramping on me? It works both ways isnt it. If you made a point to remember, i dont have to ask. and now when i ask nicely, you gave me a face, like i don't deserve to ask? What are you trying to tell me?

We used to work together pretty well, until...i don't know. I don't know what happen.I am that lost . It's sad that u see me that way.

I remembered then, i shared with you, if there's any problem arising, talk to me. I am liberal to take critism and feedback. At least i know, if ive been stepping on your shoes. But sadly, nope. You din't. You chose to talk behind my back.

I tried to talk to you, but you avoid it. So it's your lost.

You want to despise me? I am nobody to stop you feeling that way darla. I'm still working on my flaws, and i admit that sometimes, i forget and tend to go overboard.

I'm not gonna that this matter whole heartedly personally. It's a good feedback that i should work on and hopefully it can be avoided the next time.
And though at first it hurts, i'm don't wish to dwell on it.