I initially have no intention of blogging at all today as i am too tired,but after watching usik usik chef wan, i would like to share two cents worth of my personal thought. Chef wan touched about single parenting today. I automatically thought of my family. Questions running thru my mind. Lots of what ifs and how ifs. What if one of my parents died?How would i go on living? and ect. I could'nt bring myself to think of it. My mum has cancer, and to be honest with you, i'm scared. Yes,yours truly is afraid. Afraid to hear and face the brutal truth. I imagine my self pain stalkingly taking over my mother's position of being a mother to my siblings, which i can never ever take over her place. My mind is numb now. I would'nt want to lose my mum now. Now now..... I'm sorry, i can't bring myself to blog more. My fingers are shivering while typing.