I guess i woke up from the wrong side of the bed today. I woke up feeling bitter. Suddenly it gets to me. Today is the second day i had the same dream, only the dream today describes how i felt deep down. I have never as a person able to communicate with other of how i truly feel of certain thing or personal stuff. I tried before but it never get across to them of how i wanted it to be. And i felt rejected. Rejected because when i tried to pour out my feelings, personal ones, they don't seem to take seriously about it. Or at least i think that way. So my dream, i guess is where i really pour out my deepest inner thoughts. I dreamt of him. I dreamt, i was in the bus, double decker to be precise. I sat at the top. And then i saw him. Yes him with his new girlfriend. In the dream, i immediately had a rushed emotion. Butterflies in my stomach. I always expected that i would be well prepared to face such situatio, but not. I wanted to cry. I only manage to wintch in dismay. Now in reality, i thought i have gotten over him. Reason being, i never cried when he left me, not like when my other ex boyfriend left me. I never thought of him often though here and there i would check my hp for missed call. Maybe i was to caught up with work that i never had the chance to feel so. But the dream... i felt so much. I wanted so much to move on. I kept telling myself, i don't need to find another man to delude myself from this situation. There are so many other ways,yet i always imagine myself with someone else, and there he saw me with him. I imagine that he would be red-eyed seeing me with another person. I imagine him have full regret of not taking care better of me when we were together. Imagine, imagine, imagine. That was all i could muster. I right now,am taking a very deep breath. Time will heal they say. But thing is, how long? I muster lots of courage to keep this to myself.

Ughhhh.

Well, on a lighter note, my cousin from JB gotten himself a ob at Macs. I, as his cousin is anxiously happy of him. Yesterday, i excitedly went dwn tot macs to lend him e support. First day mahh!

And on the happy happy note, a friend whom i just got aquinted with invited me to go to the Marks and Spencer Fashion Show this Saturday!! How cool is that!!! I am so looking forward to it.