This morning, 8am.

"Kakak, urut mama sampai lelap ok. Jgn tinggalkan mama"

And i look away,tyrping hard not to weep,which obviously failed.Tears streaming coming down, hands caressly massaging my mum till she stopped moaning in pain.

Dear god, i shall not be selfish. I would rather you take my mum peacefully than to see my mum suffer in pain.

And i know now the true meaning,

"IF you truly love someone, sometimes you have to let them go"